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Wednesday, August 1, 2007

July was a super exciting month i say!!

why??

simple. =)

1. MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!! mwhahahahhaa. Along with MANY happening people's birthdays.=) candy, kim, grace, marcus, and my lovely friends in PL (yve,ber,etc)!

2. our very FIRST and very much YIPEEEEE combined IGNYTE event!!

3. i had my lovely sleepoverssss!! (and a lot of secrets spillers.=P)

4. embarkation of SS (Sporty Sundays)!!!!!!!=D ahahaha... like, every sunday a good bunch of us'd go sporty-people-ing. =P be it bball or soccer or blading or cycling.. as long as its sports!! we're on.=D

5. and many other random stuffs i think yguys might get bored about ahahahhhah.=P

Now, along with these yipadeedoodah stuffs also came the departure of several ppl and things...

1. vivian and joy(my fellow alpha tracker) leaving singapore for their new season in other countries..

2. went through a season of discovering how heartfelt people closest to your heart can kinda drift apart due to you-dont-exactly-know-what kind of a reason..

3. some other thoughts that leaves us wondering what the future holds that kind of a thing.=)

Well for one, i do know that it is in this month that God has been re-living and sealing the dreams i've known and had in the past few months.Ever wondered how sometimes, as more and more problems come tumbling down in the various different areas of your life, you can actually find yourself stuck in a familiarly unfamiliar spectrum of just being very much alone? not the "nobody loves me,everybody hates me" kind of a basis, but more of the...alone and away from the heartish bonds that really REALLY matter to you,while on the surface,everything is A-ok!.

Its like, with people you look up to when troubles come, those you go to for comfort, advice, etc... Somehow things just orchestrates themselves in such a way whereby you are left quite "far" away from them when you need them most. i know. i've been there. =) and i sure didnt like it. didnt like it at all... =]

But then. God's voice only grew stronger and stronger in this above mentioned period.

As men's voice went dimmer, Daddy's voice came in brighter... ynoe guys, this is sth that hit me pretty strongly. =P

y'see... many times we get into this whole pendulum of being a good child of God and taking up a whole lot of matured ideas on how to grow and groom ourselves (and fellow friends), that this facadification of having good advice and all (having people constantly encouraging and affirming us), can actually come in our way in our pursuit to reach God Himself.

When was the last time you let God Himself tell you that He enjoyed your service to Him, rather than letting your leader's affirmation serve as the sole motivation for you to serve? ynoe how sometimes certain songs just get stuck in your head over different seasons of your life? =)

Well, there is this song thats been very very VERY close to my heart since may, while i was in a certain peak moulding season in alphatrack. It goes: Lord, i want to know You more, deep within my soul i want to know You, Lord i want to know You, To feel Your heart and know Your mind, Look in to Your eyes stirrs up within me, A cry that says i want to know You, Lord i want to know You more...

and guess what? for my birthday, my beautiful bunch of leaders gave me this great book entitled "to know You more" . Neat huh. =) Exactly what i need. =D so....KEEP THE PRAYERFUL SPIRIT ALRIGHT GUYS!!!!!!!! i mean, i find it really amazing how, to know Him more, really, all we need to do is keep that prayerful and worshipful life ongoing.. =D

hahahah.. ok as you would've noticed by now, i'm a very random blogger...=) if you ask me, i'd say i LOVE the prayer chain we had for Played Out.. =P had to take time off various schedules (BIRTHDAY PARTY hahahaha, rehearsals, etc), to pray with dear Ann and Julian. =) And!! It binds the buzz group tighter in prayer, unity, and also in His love. =) But of course, dont just stop at prayer chain la!!! right Lyanne?? =P NOW is the time to step OUT and step UP. I'm really excited to see different ones of you rise up yo!!!! Esp those i've met up with hehehe...=D LETS GO FAN THE FLAME YEAHHH!!!!!!!!

Anws...Something thats really CLOSEST to my heart now is...well, hahaha..something that God just reminded me of several days ago. And.... hehehe...its not exactly anything complicating or "wong".. just sth very simple, but significant. Very, significant.=] Why am i here in IGNYTE ministry, right now, in this season of time.

Have you ever been in a situation or experienced a calling that have in time, grown to become a going? but when the going got going, y'just kinda go without knowing which direction the calling's coming to? and things just get kinda abstract-ish, but you're actually still going on the right path.

Only, without the the calling CALLING OUT to you constantly in heading to THE path. Well for one, i'm quite certain that this kinda thing is bound to happen some time in your life. You go, without knowing exactly where/why you're going. Chasing something without knowing how to grab it. Its like, dangling a carrot in front of a rabbit (having it tied around its head kind of a thing) and making the rabbit chase after it endlessly. You go in the direction where you lead yourself to. But hey...=) we dont have to always feel like a rodent running aimlessly, going all around in circles thinking we're on the right track (with our 'goal' -the carrot- still in focus), while at the end of the road realising that we actually end up at the very same place where we started off. We have much more to a chase than just an aimless race.

Me, i get reminded of this illustration every time i find myself going into this situation... =] By Tommy Tenney:

Its like playing chase with my daughter. Often as she arrives home from a day of school, we play this little game that countless fathers and children play around the world. When she comes and tries to catch me, even with my hulking frame, i really dont have to run. I just artfully dodge this way and then that, and she cant even touch me, because a 6 year old just cant catch an adult. But thats not really the purpose of the game, because a few minutes into it, she laughingly says, "Oh daddy," and its at that moment that she captures my heart, if not my presence or body. And then i turn and she's no longer chasing me, but I'm chasing her, and i catch her and we tumble in the grass with hugs and kisses. The pursuer becomes the pursued.

So can we catch God? Not really, but we can catch His heart. David did. And if we catch His heart, then He turns and chases us. Thats the beauty of being a God chaser. You're chasing the impossible, knowing its possible. and so you see... things and people close to your heart may lose focus certain times along your path of life.. But one pursuit that you can always claim beautiful, is really, this pursuit of being a God chaser. I think through the past 19 years of my life... if there was ONE thing i've learnt more than anything else, and if i could choose ONE thing to stay on unwavered for the rest of my life, it'd be for me to be a God chaser. Being a God chaser means i dont have to chase after anything else not knowing why and how i'm chasing after what i'm chasing after. =]

What are you chasing after today?


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